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Setahun...
Thursday, December 15, 2011 || 2:05 AM
Tahun lpas...kisah yg pling perit prnah aq hdapi...rse skit yg tramat sgt...smpai skrg...aq msih rasa kesakitan 2...sakit 2 x prnah hilang wlaupun bnda 2 dh lma brlalu...n aq dh maafkan dy...because...woman is easy to forgive..but not easy to forget...and..there's an incident where i leave him a year ago..because of this girl...aq mngalah..aq prgi...n aq sntiasa doakan dy bhagia..but..bad news i get...n aq plak..dihentam truk oleh that girl yg bjet "good good" sdgkan prangai mngalahkan setan.(hambek kau!)eleh..aq tgk pic ko..bknnye lawa pun.stakat pndai brgaya jer..dh la free hair...aq kalu free hair..ko dh lma la kalah truk.phuii.!dulu aq mne tau pkai make up.ko dh la pkai make up tbal seinci.laki ko dulu yg trkejar2 kt aq.dgn natural beauty lg.ko ada.?HAHA.
haa..nmpak 2...dh jauh trsasar dh ;D ala..lgpun bnyak lg la yg ko x tau kitaorg still cntact time ko ngan dy..mcm2 dy ngadu kt aq..wlaupun kt fb dy..tulis..syg ko smpai mati..eh..?kalu btul..knp dy still cri aq...n slh ko jgk..x reti nk jga hati dy.ko ingt aq x tau pe ko wt kt dy.hello.spy aq bnyak la kt sne.n dy sndiri admit kt aq..dy lbih sygkn aq drpd ko.n dy mnyesal sbb plih ko dulu..n..family dy x prnah pun ske ko..jgn nk prasan sgt la der.dh mcm2 yg aq dgr ttg ko dri fmily dy.aq ase nk "pang x100 je kt mke ko".ok..haaa..nmpk..jauh lg trsasar..aq bknnye nk citer sgt pasal bdk gediks nie.oppss..
Tp..aq x nafikan la..time ko ngan dy..mmg aq mnderita..kawan2 aq time sem 3 n short sem je tau..aq overdose..i almost kill myself..haha.bile pkir blik..mmg giler jgk la.n adk dy plak.fatin.x bis2 cntact aq..mntk aq n dy together2 blik..tp aq x nk..biarlah..dy tgh bhagia kn..rpa2 nyer..lpas kitaorg dh brbaik..dy admit..x lma lpas aq ngan gediks 2 brtengkar..dy nk cntact aq blik..tp dy tkt aq still mrah..sbb time 2 aq mmg mrah thp giler babeng punyer..it it takes a few month jgk la nk redakan diri..heee~.n then..dy kta..wlaupun dy dgn gediks 2..dy still x dpt lupakan aq lngsung..bile dgr cm2..x kn x trharu kot..huhu.dy pun tau aq pun dlm keadaan yg sma jgk..dy pun prnah ckp..knp dri dulu..2 thn lpas..skali pun dy x mmpu lpakan aq..n i'm sorry..i couldn't give the answer..bcoz i don't know the answer..
Tp..bru2 nie..x la bru sgt...2 blan lpas..kitaorg brgaduh..smpai dy ptuskan hbungan...2 me..it is a small matter..but to him..it's kind of big..ok..then..aq mntk maaf..dy kta dh trlmbt la.sdgkn bru shari lpas 2 jer..dri pgi smpai mlm...bru dpt..pas2 kta dh trlmbt..ok..time 2 aq mmg dh hangin..tp aq krgkn ego..n aq mntk maaf blik..x jd jgk..it takes a 3 weeks..but nothing happened..then..aq snyap jer...pas2,aq dpt tau dy gduh ngan mmber2 rpat dy..ok..seriously...aq dh x tau nk wt pe..aq dpt rase bnda nie mlibatkan aq wlaupun kwn dy dh bnyak kali ckp x.mgkin dy still nk tnangkan diri ttg hal aq n dy..maybe that night smthing happened...then.smpai ptus kawan..dy dh wt bnda nie jd mkin pnjang..aq call kkk dy..dy on phone ke x..ktanye sblum dy gduh ngan kwn2 dy..phone dy pun dh x brape fungsi sbb dh ptus ngan aq..dy cm dh x amik kisah ttg spe nk call dy or msg dy..bile dy ptus kwn..x lma pas2 trus x aktif no..kitaorg dh jem..dy cm ada ngadu kt aq ttg kwn2 dy..tp x scara detail..aq pjuk dy blik..aq ckp..smua org syg dy..but mgkin aty dy dh kras cm btu simen..so..ssh nk pcahkan..
Until now..we're still thinking for the solution..lgpun x elok x brtegur spe lma2..tp kawa dy kta..dy sbnarnye prlukan sy..prlukan kawan2 dy..cme skrg ego dy msih tnggi...ibu pun kta biarkan dy..tp ntah la..mkin lma dibiar..mkin mnjadi2 plak dy nie...serius..aq ngan kawan2 dy mmg risaukan dy...dh la x dgr khabar brita..bile kwn2 dy tnye aq dy dpt smbung study ke x..aq ase sbak plak sbb aq dh lma x cntact dy..diaorg ingt aq dh brbaik ngan dy...but we do hope that this scenario will change..
i miss u so much...tlg maafkan smua ksilapan sy n kwn2 awak...i miss the old times )':
